Be yourself.

Wow. After almost 14 months of being together, I would not expect this from you. I still remember when we first met that we both agreed that we both knew how it felt when someone who has been through almost everything with you would just leave you and throw everything you had away. We knew how it felt, and we would never do that to each other. No matter what, we would always keep fight through any obstacle because in the end we both knew it would be worth it. But guess what.. someone gave up. I’ll admit there were time where I couldn’t bare it anymore, but I kept my word and still pushed through and it worked out. But you, i don’t know what happened. I thought you would appreciate my effort trying to stay and work it out with you because I knew how badly you were treated in the past. “I think its better off if were just friends.” Honestly, that’s no fair to me. Because you get what you want, and what do i get? Broken promises and fake smiles. I maybe rude and say I don’t want to be friends, but I don’t think someone deserves to be my friend after promising me a lot of things that meant my whole life to me. I can’t believe this is all happening again. I thought I could have trusted you. I really did fall for you, and I fell for you really hard. Now, you left me. You claimed that you still love and care for me. But honestly, if you really did love and care for me, why would you leave me here hurt? Does that really show love and care? I don’t think so. Correct me if I’m wrong. I rather you say that you don’t love me and don’t care for me instead of trying to say things that you think I would believe to make me feel better. I’m tired of this love game. After this, I’m seriously not about to deal with it. I don’t who to trust anymore.. but that’s fine. I’m hurt as fuck.. but oh well..

wow, you’re calling me right now. i don’t even know if i should pick up or not.. i don’t like on and off relationships. its either you’re with me all the way or not. YOU CHOOSE.