Be yourself.

POINT BLANK. I understand that we’re busy and what not. But it just isn’t the same. Things change, yeah? I hate to admit it. I hate the fact that the fire isn’t there anymore. I’ve been trying for almost 2 months now trying to get back that spark. Nothing is getting better. It’s like a heartbeat sorta.. going up and down. I feel like it’s not worth it anymore. I’m giving so much. I’m trying so hard. It feels youre only giving me half the work it takes to keep this together. Shouldn’t it be your all? Maybe we were too stupid to think this would keep up. Maybe it’s just not meant to be. who knows. I’m not happy anymore. I don’t enjoy talking to you as much anymore. I don’t even trip when you never call me anymore. I’m just whatever with it. You don’t matter as much to me anymore. Somehow you always try to win me back, but it just goes back to the same old shit. I don’t think I should go back to it anymore. This sucks. We’ve been through a lot I know.. but that was the past. What about now? Do I just stay unhappy? or be alone and let myself be happy?