Be yourself.

I swear, I’m on the verge of breaking apart. My grades are not at what I want them to be. I do not know what is wrong with me. I have a lot on my shoulders. I want to cry. I have no one to vent to anymore. And the person I used to vent to about everything doesn’t even care about my thoughts anymore. She/he never hits me up anymore. I hella thought we were friends no matter what, whatever. Fuck you. I mean, I have friends, but I don’t have that certain friend where I can just spill everything to and won’t judge me or get annoyed of me. I’ve noticed that a lot of people talk behind people’s backs. And I don’t wanna tell a person something and end up spreading it or using it against me. Nowadays, you really can’t trust anyone. Don’t get me wrong, I love my circle of friends, we’ve all been down since middle school or longer. But I want that one friend where I know won’t leave me and that will always have my back no matter what and will never turn against me. People wonder why I always hang out with Hash. Well maybe because he is the only one that I really trust with everything. He’s proven to me that he’s been there for me and did what he could to cheer me up. He’s actually put effort into staying in my life. I have two other friends that have been there for me countless times, and I really appreciate it. I just wish I didn’t feel as if I was bothering or annoying them all the time, that’s all..